I woke up at 4:30 am today with a strange sensation throughout my body. I felt like my whole body was pulsating. Then my head started thumping. I tossed and turned until I needed to get up at 6:30 am for my catscan on my head.
The morning started off cloudy, but warm for this time of year. It started off in the lower 50’s, but it’s suppose to get windy and cold today. I’m currently sitting on the couch at 9:45 in the morning watching Fox News and wondering about my health.
I was nearly in tears as the nurse drew blood and as I went into the catscan room at 8:00 am. The guy who did the test sensed my concern and told me that 90 percent of the people who get ct scans have nothing show up. That was good, but that also means 1 in 10 DO have something show up. With my luck, I’ll be the one out of the 10.
I had a great talk with God this morning. I prayed for the obvious things, but I also realize God has a plan and he’s not waiting for me to complete the plan. He’s going to do what He wants no matter what. I just need to be willing to be a part of the plan, not to be a hindrance. So, while I don’t want to have a tumor in my head, I know He’s in total control and I just need to trust.
This process has been hard, but it’s been good. I know people are praying for me. That’s also a good thing. However, the doctor and the hospital are making waiting even more difficult. I was told today that I may have to wait a week to get the results. How can they expect people to wait that long? That’s ridiculous.
I am a bit disappointed I can’t go hunting tomorrow (opening day deer hunting). But, in the scheme of things, that’s VERY small. 🙂
I had one great success today. I was able to do the dishes without feeling too queezy. So, perhaps things are looking up.
I’m excited to start reading Romans tomorrow in The Message. I love that book. I helps me focus on what’s important. Chapter 9, will be especially helpful.